Try to tell

It's not easy to hold everything inside just because you have no one. All this time I always try just keep everything inside and try think positively about my feeling inside. But, more I think positively and more I try to keep it. More I can't hold it by myself. Sometimes I think it's better to tell anyone else but it makes no sense at all. Everyone who I told about my problem or my story always give me suggestion, the best suggestion which they can give. I don't know where the wrong is but it just so hard for me to fix my fault. It's hard to be a better me. Maybe I'm too stupid to understand my friend's suggestion. I'm too stupid to understand how to fix all my fault and don't do my fault anymore in my future. What I always do in the future is the mistake which I had done in the past. Oh God, help me to learn not do my fault anymore. Why it seems so hard. I beg you...